THIS IS NOT THE START

this is not the start 

even though 
we've come this far 
still i'm not sure 

if i know you 
if i know you 

this is not the end 
things don't stop 
old always blends 
into new 
find a door 
and follow me through 

and i will know you 
and i will know you


GHOST STORIES

i'm a ghost i'm a ghost now 

i'm a ghost i'm a ghost running out of mind 
i'm a ghost i'm a ghost now 
i'm a ghost i'ghost i was left behind 
am i already forgotten 
you know how it is these days 

i'm a ghost i'm a ghost now 
i'm a ghost i'm a ghost since my future's past 
i'm a ghost i'm a ghost now 
i'm a ghost i'm a ghost i am free at last 
'cause i'm already forgotten you know how it is 

these days belong to me alone 
busy nights are gone 
keep a gaslight on 

i'm a ghost, i'm a ghost now 
i'm a ghost i'm a ghost it's not bad at all 
i'm a ghost i'm a ghost now 
i'm a ghost i'm a ghost who you gonna call 
i'm forever forgotten you know how it is 

these days belong to me alone 
busy nights are gone 
so keep a gaslight on 
these days belong to me alone 
busy nights are gone 
so keep a gaslight on


KEEP IT LOSE IT MISS IT

don't remember 

know that it was 
what you came for 
what it does 
to you 

less than nothing 
more than it all 
like hope in hell 
like spring in fall 

and if you ever 
catch the feeling 
keep it 
lose it 
miss it 

stop searching 
try to be found 
don't expect it 
it will be around 
somehow 

say it is freedom 
tell me it is love 
call it wisdom
it's 
far above 

and if you ever 
catch the feeling 
keep it 
lose it 
miss it


THE ART OF GIVING IN

sell all your things 

drive out to the shore 
where the sea is rough 

i do know 

that it's not 
easy to admit 
when it's all fucked up 

sell all your dreams 
move into a town 
where the streets are tough 

i do know 

that it's not 
easy to give in 
when you've worked so much


LESSONS

don't join the machines 

they're making their gearwheels forget 
that they can turn on their own and 

question every word 
that wants you to blindly obey 
they can't make you follow 

hear me out 
hear me out 
hear me out 
before you go 

hold on to the things 
and people that make you forget 
that you are terrified 

don't love everyone 
but love everybody that's hurt 
from hurting someone else 

hear me out 
hear me out 
hear me out 
before you go 

be immune to all their stories 
until you proof me wrong 

so hear me out 
hear me out 
hear me out 
hear me out 
before you grow


A SILENT SMILE

i go too slow when i walk 

i'm way too fast when i run 
i geht so cold in the night 
but i'm always hot in the sun 

and i am too small for this grown up world 
with my thoughts too big 
my thoughts too big to fit in 

i am so quiet when in company 
i talk too much home alone 
i love all things that i can never have 
but i hate the things that i own 

and i am too small for this grown up world 
with my thoughts too big 
my thoughts too big to fit in 

i am too small for this grown up world 
with my thoughts too big 
to fit in 

an empty room 
a silent smile 
i'll be on my own tonight 

an empty room 
a beach boys song 
i'll be on my own to night 

an empty room 
a silent smile 
i'll be on my own tonight 

i'll be on my own tonight 
i'll be on my own tonight


QUESTIONS AND BONES

if i went for the doorway 

just my boredom and me 
if i could get rid of these doubts in my knees 
where would i be 

if i wasn't a gamble 
if i was sure of what i know 
if i wasn't all questions and bones 
where would i go 

where would i go 
where would i go 

there's no fence in the doorway 
there's no walls in the street 
there's a cage in the back of my head 
and that's all they need 

i'm trapped in this town 
now far too long to feel alright 
i've walked all the streets 
climbed every hill 

and i'm so weary of all the billboards 
shops and cars and traffic lights 
how they never 
stand 
still 

it is so fucking bright here 
these blinding lights just won't go 
so if i were able to glow in the night 
how would i know


SOLID AS I SHAKE

can you lose what you don't have 

can you miss what is still there 
could you ever love to like 
can you turn away and care 

can you chase away the paralyzed 
could you change and stay the same 
can you order the unorganized 
would you judge who's not to blame 
and will you give this mess a name 

'cause i'm still waiting again 
we're dancing without sound 
spinning all our hopes around 
oh my i'd love to pretend 
this is nothing more 
than good times that we spent 

i am certainly unsure 
confidentially insecure 
standing solid as i shake 
far asleep but wide awake 

we're stuck here in between 
where all borders start to blur 
what we do and what we want 
what is unjust what is fair 
what we are and what we were 

so i'm still waiting again 
we're dancing without sound 
spinning all our hopes around 
oh my i'd love to pretend 
this is nothing more 
than good times that we spent


BATTLES

hit me if you love 

me with all you got 
you can save me now 
if you try 

tear down my door 
hold my hand before 
oceans run dry 

hit me if you dare 
landmines everywhere 
you are hurting now 
so am i 

knock on my door 
undeclare this war 
fractions go by 

i'll be honest 
if you let me 
but if you need me to lie 
i'll try


ONCE WE WERE KING

farewell my friend 

i'm not gonna lie 
i do fear the end 
but all has to die 
one day 

since you are gone now 
who is steering this boat home 

once we were king 
we shared a crown 
drifting through life 
i knew you would drown 
one day 

and since you are gone now 
who is steering this boat home 
how could you sink now 
leaving this old wreck alone 

your presence will fade 
your echoes survive 
they'll brighten my ways 
they'll keep me alive 
one day 

but since you are gone know 
who is steering this boat home


WALLS

all these pretty things keep calling me 

sad boy it's time 
head home 

'cause 
i'm done loosing things outside 
in the end 
i've been shown 

it's good to have walls 
containing your insides 
it's good to have walls 
to keep out the cold 
it's good to have walls 
with doors for the outside 
it's good to have walls 
walls 
that will hold 
till you're old